"something wonderful"

It's been a while since I've written as life has a way of taking over...
schedules, dr appts, food shopping, cleaning the bathroom, driving my son places.

About 2 weeks ago a new friend of mine told me about this book she read that discussed being aware of our thoughts.  It was interesting to me as this is a theme I have come across in comparative religions and philosophy.

A few days ago I started saying to myself in the morning, something wonderful is going to happen today.  I found myself looking for things, like enjoying a cup of tea with Bella on my lap while we watched the chickadees eat at the bird feeder.  I was finding 'something wonderful' every day.

Then I read this quote, "Live life like an experiment" and something clicked.  Yes, why not live as though this is an experiment, try things out, don't be so afraid.  PLAY, be curious, step out of the box.

So I took a chance and wrote an email.  The result?  I am booked on a flight to Italy for mid-May.
WOW!!!

I never thought I would return to Italy.  Several things fell into place, the MOST important being that the woman who owns the house in Umbria is allowing me to stay there again.

It's still hasn't sunk in yet.

A month ago I was devastated about my knee, about my chronic illness.

I changed the way I ate, it's been almost 5 weeks of only eating organic veggies (no potatoes, no corn) some fruit and chicken.  I am running 2-3x a week.  (dr doesn't know that yet, ha)

I feel so grateful.  As I ran in the snow today (not easy) I looked at the trees and nature...bliss.

Not taking myself so seriously, not letting fear paralyze me, and taking risks...asking, it the way to go.

I am 47 and really just starting to understand life.  The focus in more on living, rather than ME.

Joseph Campbell said that what we are all looking for is an EXPERIENCE of life, not a meaning.  I know what he means.  ;)